Help!!! 2011 Goals!

Ok, I want to set some realistic, exciting and challenging 2011 goals but I can't think of anything.

I want something I will stick to and something that will really make me feel good. i don't want to limit them to just health and fitness, yet I definitely want that included. I need them to be managable and not overwhelming.

Here are some ideas I'm throwing around

- ACE certification (something I wanted to do for awhile)

- Pay off at least one of my two HUGE student loans

- Get my weight to 127 or below (in a healthy manner)

- Give myself a monthly allowance to spend and stick to it

Now these are good and will be a part of my goals...but there is nothing really exciting. I want to try something new! but I don't know what.

I want to step out into the land of the unknown, where it is scary to go, but exciting because you know that each step is one that betters you, you know?

so....any ideas???

Starting Again???

Wow! I haven't been on here in forever! I know, you think I had fallen off the face of the earth right? I don't know what really happened.

I finished one month of Insanity and didn't want to continue the second month because I was missing my weights...I felt like a failure. It felt like something else in my life I just didn't accomplish and 'failed' at doing.

So, while I continued to exercise, I stopped being accountable. My exercising is usually pretty good, even if I miss a day I know I will come back to it. It's my eating that is the problem. So after I felt as thought I failed, I stopped keeping track of things and simply stopped trying.

My job helped me to continue this because I don't have the time to eat during the day and often times it is 6 - 7 hours from breakfast to lunch and then I'm starving!!!

This job is also mentally taxing on me. While I'm learning a lot, that is not what I'm talking about. It is my boss. She is great but she is also 5' 5" (my height) and 115lbs. This is a killer for me. I am 135 so all the little demons in my head are just telling me how huge I am and I have started back on some bad habits...like not packing lunch / dinner or eating late at night cause I didn't eat enough during the day cause I didn't want to eat in front of her.

I know this is in my head and I need to conquer it. There will ALWAYS be someone better looking / smarter / more physically fit...etc then me. I need to just be the "best version of ME" (as Sandrelle so nicely put it on her post). As long as I keep telling myself I'm worthless, I will treat myself that way.

I need to start loving me. I've said that before and I wonder if this time it will truly happen, but I'm not going to worry about that, just move from today.

So, I'm starting my new year now. I know I won't get online every day cause neither my job nor my Internet connection allow that, but I will continue posting and keeping myself accountable.

That said, I am going to try Bikram yoga again, starting Sunday....yoga in a room that is 105 degrees!!!! I'd love to stick with it, but money will determine that one...haha!

Here's to being the best version of ourselves!!!

Merry Christmas!