Pure Cardio - Day 5

Whew! Todays workout was go go GO! Another sweat dripping workout. The other Insanity workouts were rounds within sets and breaks in-between. Today's was all different and constant. Even Shawn T said he was nervous. Now I know why :) There weren't as many plyo moves but there were some jumping moves and the rest were just intense. Combine that with being constant and you have a killer workout!

I look forward to the day when I can actually do all the exercises in good form and consistently. I don't feel bad for taking quick breaks because they do it in the DVD too, so I know it's not just me. however, I don't think I do my movements quite as well as they do, so there is definitely work to be done.

Today though I was plagued by my weight. I got on the scale before I worked out and it was up TWO POUNDS! I know that I should not judge myself by the scale but my clothes are any looser either so it must be correct. This put a damper on everything. I found myself fighting negative self talk the whole workout.

I would start to comment on my legs (biggest problem area) and worthless I am and that's why I probably don't have a bf to saying NO THAT IS NOT TRUE. You do have things to work on but YOU ARE NOT WORTHLESS.

It was quite a battle and to tell you the truth, I'm still battling. I wish I could just look in the mirror and be thankful that I can even do these workouts and don't have a ton of weight to lose. Why am I so hard on myself?

I don't know but I think I need to start committing, to myself, to be a better person to me. I don't judge others like I judge myself.

So, I continue the workouts and look to improve the eating. one step at a time...