January 2011 Goals

In process...

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Who's to Blame?

Ever since I started trying to eat cleaner I noticed that I kept getting obstacles thrown in my way:
1. scratched my cornea and couldn't make my own meals or exercise
2. had to deal with my brother breaking his foot and needing help until he could get surgery
3. work on the house (constant pressure)
4. had a nephew who also had surgery on his foot and needed help
5. my sis has some medical problems that keep her down when they get painful and I step in

These are just a few things that have happened over the past two weeks. With all this happening, I found my resolve to stick to my clean eating even harder. I didn't have the time I needed to prepare meals and figure out what to eat and I slowly found myself eating less clean and introducing more junk (reduced fat cookies / doritos / frozen pizza rolls / buttered popcorn...).

Last night, as I was eating my pizza rolls and feeling miserable, I was thinking of all the things happening and blaming everyone else for my inability to eat clean. What I didn't want to admit is that I am the one in control of my eating.

Life is filled with challenges. It is not designed to let us live a problem free / clutter free existance. We grow stronger through these challenges if we allow ourselves to learn.

I heard someone say once, "it's never the trial that makes us stronger, it's what we choose to do with that trial." I have been allowing my trials to pave way for my excuses, so I could always have somewhere to place blame.

While I can't say I am never going to blame anyone again, I can say that I am going to start taking responsibility and I pray that every day I will grow stronger and when I fail and start to place blame again, I will once again go back to God and pray for strength to use my place in life as a building block for where I'm headed next.

These next two weeks are really committed to making the most of my situation and learning how to continue. I choose them because I have an opportunity to do it without interruptions.

Now, off to exercise and then to the grocery store to find some clean eats!

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